Sunday, 26 February 2012

Loose Ends

I don't remember feeling quite like this about anything before. I think I've been aware of something strange creeping up on me for a while but i'm only just finding words that match... Its like my heart has just caught up with my head - or it's the other way around? I'm not sure.

My friend Phil was asking me on Saturday how I was feeling about heading off. I don't know if my answer to him made any sense but what I was trying to say was that I feel… Exposed. Over the past few weeks I have been slowly ‘tying up loose ends’ (for want of a better term) leaving my job, finishing off projects, closing accounts, packing up belongings, saying goodbyes… What I realized though is that life is full of ‘loose ends,’ they’re like a spaghetti junction of options that cover over all the gaps.  But when you tie them up it all stops. The normal daily activities cease to exist and you’re left… Just you. You and the one end that’s not tied up, which ironically feels like is the most fragile and uncertain of all.

This weekend I said goodbye to so many amazing friends (some I’ll be saying goodbye to everyday this week before I depart on Friday morning) but it only really hit me Today – as I was sat next to my friend Dave before church this morning – I’m actually going! Me, 3 wheels and a crazy dream. Exposure is a scary thing. Goodbye’s… closure… tied up end’s… are all far to real for my liking but I’m exited. Terrified but excited. 5 days to go!  

Friday, 17 February 2012

Wild Goose ARTventures: Two weeks to go!

Wild Goose ARTventures: Two weeks to go!: It seems a lot has happened since my last post. The last few weeks have been spent franticly finishing off sculptures firing endless amounts...

Two weeks to go!

It seems a lot has happened since my last post. The last few weeks have been spent franticly finishing off sculptures firing endless amounts of clay work, making lots of paper lanterns, packing my studio up into boxes and hanging a full sized willow horse from the ceiling! ...And on Friday the 10th of Feb I waved goodbye to the John Bentley School.

Monday this week i hitched hiked my way up to the lake district to see my sister, who is just setting up as a artist in residence at an outdoor pursuit centre near Kendal. Somehow my route took me via leeds which was a very bad idea so it took me over 12 hours to get there. We have spend the week erecting a giant living willow Spider - apparently called Arthur (photo's to follow). So i am now sat writing as my sister clears her studio.

In two weeks to the day i will set out on the 800 mile journey to Berlin. (a prospect that i still haven't got my head around.) There is still so much to do and to get before i go. My tricycle is in pieces waiting to be painted and serviced and i still need to get a decent saddle as mine is a little tender on the behind to say the least. So here it comes Two weeks of mad packing, gathering and clearing...

And suppose i should get on with a bit of training too!